I'm LOUD!!!!

No!! Not that kind of loud!!
When I get mad...I'm loud!! I can't "talk" my way through it....I yell my way through it. Why can't people just understand that when I get mad, I yell! And to just let me yell it out would take a lot less time then standing there telling me to stop yelling and talk about it, because that just makes me more mad and I just keep yelling and yelling louder and louder! Who cares if the neighbors hear! At the time...I'm mad and I don't care who hears!!!! Accept it...I'm LOUD!!!

PLAY BALL!!!

It's here!!! It's baseball season!! What does that mean? For my family it means the following:
Sunshine
Green Grass
Screaming
Hot Dogs
Fast Balls
Curve Balls
Slow Balls
Sliders
Mariners
Rainiers
I could go on an on.
Our family LOVES baseball! From Greg to Gary. From Nana B. To Grandma B.
We love everything about baseball! Going to games, watching them on TV, Eating hot dogs (wherever we are), Hearing the crack when the ball hits the bat. The yell of the umpire, "Steee-RIKE" or "Ball 1, Ball 2, Ball 3, Ball 4" The sound of the Train (you know what I mean you Safecoers) The smell of the freshly cut grass, the 7th inning stretch, the homeruns, the strikeouts, the jerseys (eh girls?!), EVERYTHING!!! We love baseball and we love this time of year!

How much do I love spring?

I love spring! Here's a few reasons:

Napping in the sunshine!
Shorts!!
And of course my weekness: Flip Flops!!!

I went out shopping today (I had to go get a potty chair for Isaac) and I had my windows down, Cool air on, in my capris and flip flops, boys in their shorts and sandles, music up, wind in my hair, sun in my face filling my body with the warmth it has been desperatly searching for, and I thought to my self....how could you not LOVE spring?! It's been cold and snowing for months!! The sun is out! My thermometer in my car has not seen a 7 on the left side of the numers in a VERY long time!! Life is SOOOOO much better when it's warm outside, don't you think?! You can open your doors and windows, get fresh air, put on your shorts, t-shirts, and sandles!!! I love everthing that comes with spring. The park days, the fresh air flowing through my house, the ridding of clutter, dust, and all around stuffyness that comes with winter and closing of doors and windows. I love the flowers blooming, birds chirping, deer grazing in my backyard I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Spring!!!!!!

I let my kids walk barefoot

I know...2 posts in 1 day?! Wow! But this just cracked me up so I had to share!

I babysit this little girl that is the same age as Isaac. I think their a whopping 2 weeks apart. I was taking her home and had to wake up Isaac. So I took Celest and Gary down to the car and then I got Isaac out of bed (he's got on basketball shorts and a t-shirt). I threw on his Seahawks hoodie and wrapped him in his blanket (its like 40 outside) and took him down and put him in the car. I dropped Celest off with her sister and then came home. I took Gary out of the car and then unbuckled Isaac so he could climb out. He did and we headed the entire 10 feet to the bottom of the stairs at our apartment. One of our neighbors was getting out of her car (I have never spoken to this particular neighbor, not for any reason, just because we have never needed to or really had anything to say to each other) looked at Isaac and asked, "shouldn't he have shoes on?" I looked at her, then looked at him, and said, "No." and finished hauling my kids up the stairs and inside. She didn't seem like it really offended her or for that matter really effected her. I just laughed! It's 10 feet and 13 stairs!! Does he really need shoes?! What's he gonna step on....a rock?! I realize there COULD be hazardous stuff but I pay attention and it's not like we live with a bunch of druggies so there's needles all over the ground! It's just nature! I believe it was meant to be stepped on. Shoes or no shoes!

6:30am....REALLY?!?

I love my kids!!


I live for them, I would die for them, and if needed I'm pretty sure I would kill for them (you know if some horrible animal was attacking them....I would kill). They are my life, my love and my world. But 6:30!!!!!


I am SOOOOO not a morning person! Anything before 9 or10am is early for me.


We are on day 1 Million Bajillion of gett up at 6:30am!!! I don't know how to make it stop!!! I'm so tired!! Gary luckily still takes a nap after being up for an hour and a half, and Isaac is pretty self entertaining so i can lay on the floor or couch but nothing compares to the huge honkin pillow bed I have! Fortunatly they will take a good 2-3 hr nap at the same time in the afternoon. Unfortunatly they usually fall asleep just as the little girl I babysit arrives. There goes that idea!


So because it takes my brain a good 2 hrs to join the rest of my body, Isaac gets a ziploc bag of cereal and a cup of milk infront of playhouse disney when he wakes up in the morning.


When I took him in for his 2 yr check up his Dr asked how much TV he watches, I smiled, laughed and told her "I'll be perfectly honest. Isaac watches at least 3-4 hrs of TV in the morning. We do TRY and turn it off at 1030-11 but it doesn't happen all that often!" She just sat there with this shocked look on her face. I thought it was because of how much tv he watched and then she said "That is the most honest answer I think I've ever gotten!" then proceeded to tell me that she only wanted him watching 1-2 hrs a day! I smiled and nodded my head all the while thinking "Yah right! You're not the one that has to get up with them at 6:30!!!!!!


Now then, if your one of those "chipper in the morning because the sun is up and it's going to be a glorious day" kind of people....My hat off to you....Kudos....Mass props and all of that!! *Love you mom* I'm not! My kids are!! This seems to be a problem! They used to sleep till 8-830! What happend!? Why do they feel the need to wake up so early...nothing changed! They don't have a new bedtime...they light didn't change any...It's still super dark in their room (Thanks to Navy blue curtains...greatest thing since sliced bread) I don't get it! We need to figure this out because my kids can't keep waking up to this in the morning!!

A Quest

So last week I made a pretty hefty decision! I have started a new quest. My quest is to love myself inside and out as much as my husband does.
To feel as sexy as he sees me. To not question why he loves me. I want to feel the way he sees me. I don't want to have any regrets. I want to live my life to the fullest. Experience all that I can.
Step 1 - Love my body ~ I weighed and measured my self. No lies I am 5'2" and 157lbs. I'm learning to accept it. To not complain about it. If I'm not going to actively change the # on the scale then I'm going to learn to love my body the way it is. Imperfect. Overweight. Flat in places it shouldn't be. Extra in places the "perfect" body doesn't have. I am a Mommy and it shows. I am bigger then the rest of my siblings. I was built that way. I was born with curves and I intend to keep them! I have dry hands. I get zits when mother nature comes knocking. My fingernails are all different lengths and I'm OK with that. I don't usually get a shower everyday because I'm usually too busy goofing off with my kids! I'm loving my body because although it may not look to the world as they would perceive the "perfect" body should, It's mine!
Step 2 - Have no regrets ~ I admittedly have a lot of regrets about my past. However, I am coming to realize there's nothing I can do about it because it's the past and well...you simply can't change the past. So let's move forward with life. I have always regretted the fact that I botched my chamber singer's audition (for those of you who don't know what that is...Chamber singers is the top vocal group at Walla Walla High School. All of my siblings were in it. I tried out but didn't take it seriously, made some pretty dumb moves, and as a result didn't make the cut.) So to move forward with life I, last Saturday, went up to the Tacoma Rainier's Pre-Season party and auditioned to sing the national anthem at one of their games. I haven't heard either way but I did the best I could. I practiced for days, all day every day. I sang when Isaac told me to stop, I sang in the shower, I sang while I made dinner, did dishes, did the laundry, in the car...anywhere and everywhere! I went, I almost chickened out but I sang. Now...I wait. An update to follow
Step 3 - Accept my faults ~ There are always dirty dishes in my sink, Laundry that needs to be folded, floors that need to be swept, mopped or vacuumed. Bathrooms that could probably be cleaned and beds that could be made. My house is in a constant state of disaster....but my kids are happy. If I were to take a picture right now, there would be a couch overflowing with clothes that need to be folded and put away, laundry hampers full with clothes that need to be washed, and toys all over the floor...But my kids would be smiling, laughing, or some other state of pure childhood joy! They have so many clothes that I am constantly donating some. They are loved so much that one of Isaac's first words were "Luh Loo" aka Love you. Gary smiles when we tell him we love him. They know who there parents are. They know that if they need something they can ask and we stop what were doing and help them. Nothing is more important then they are. Dishes can wait, Floors will be dirty, they laundry will be there tomorrow. They are only little for so long. I may not be the best "Homemaker" but I am a dang good mom and wife. My family always has something to eat. My kids always have diapers and clothes. My husband Loves me, desires me, and provides for me and our family.
Step 4 - Step out ~ I am a shy person. I don't like calling people out side my social circle (and by social circle I mean anyone who isn't my husband, sisters, brother, mom or dad.) It makes me nervous and I literally have to work up the guts to do it. Our calling (ward PFR) has helped some. It requires me to call people I may not talk to except for every 9 months when I call them to enlist their help cleaning the church building. I am trying to get my PartyLite Candle business going to earn a little extra money. That requires calling people and asking them to host parties for a product they either 1 have never heard of or 2 love but can't afford (it is admittedly kind of expensive). It gets a lot of rejections, and that hurts, but I'm trying to not let that stop me. I'm trying to realize and learn that most people don't judge me the way I think they do.
That's where I'm starting. I have no deadline. I will take as long as I need. This is my quest to Love everything there is love about me. Love me the way my family does. To stop being so critical and accept my new body. To Love ME the way my Father in Heaven does, Perfectly!

2 Weeks!

Greg has been working 2 jobs. Mon-Fri 12pm-830pm at State Farm and then Fri and Sat Night 11pm-7am at a Hotel in Lacey. He just got a raise at State Farm so we attempted to live this month (March) on just his State Farm check and passed with flying colors so this morning Greg went down to the hotel and gave his 2 weeks notice to Mark (His boss....obviously). Mark was very understanding and told him that he had just been thinking that Greg had been there long enough, not that Mark was going to fire him, but just had a feeling that if Greg were to come in that it would be OK. Greg just explained to Mark that it was just the right time for our family and it wasn't a necessity anymore. We need to have more family time and this is the only way to get that. Mark told him he would find someone with in the 2 weeks, and if before he would definitely let Greg know! Now the fun part! Greg was telling mark of some of the trips we had planed this year and asked if he could get a friends and family discount card for the hotels we would be staying at and Mark said "Oh Greg! You guys will always be friends and family!" Anytime you need one just call!" Greg has been lucky to have such an amazing boss like Mark. He's always been accommodating of Greg's needs, and sometimes wants. I'm so glad that it went smoothly and that Mark was so understanding!